What’s this about?

Welcome to my blog. It’s important I introduce this venture with some clear intentions around why I am doing this and what my goals are for this blog. First, this is not meant to be a “business venture”, or a way to gain any fame or recognition. I simply want a creative outlet to reflect on my personal journey, share some encouraging messages, and promote complete authenticity. Authenticity on the internet is a rare these days – especially since so much of the internet is geared towards selling a product or brand. I want this blog to stand for compassion, acceptance, and authenticity. We are all on a constant, ever-evolving journey to find our inner truths, and I know I’m not the only one out there seeking to learn from and connect with others.

Now…before you start thinking that I must be some lonely, middle aged, person with 6 cats and a keyboard, let me say I have a very full life. I have a career, a partner, friends, pets, a beautiful daughter, and yet I still have this yearning to “do” something more. To create. To do something just for me that I am passionate about. And if it can help just one person along the way in a small and perhaps insignificant way, then even better.

So while I’m going to make the attempt to remain anonymous, I’m going to get deeply personal and post about a variety of topics that I am passionate about. Astrology, fashion, psychology, parenthood, with a sprinkle of existential philosophy are all on the menu, but who knows what other passions I’ll find along the way and want to share. I am on an ever-evolving path of self discovery and fully expect this project to evolve right a long with me. Y’all can just enjoy the ride.

My story (in a nutshell)

I know I said I want to remain anonymous but allow me to somewhat introduce myself for context at least. I’m a mom in her mid thirties. I was raised and now currently live in the PNW, but spent most of my adult formative years on the East Coast in Boston and New York. I went to school in Boston, got my degree in Psychology (and now do something completely unrelated to my degree), got married, got divorced, moved back to the northwest, and went through a quarter life crisis all before I turned 30. And in the last 4 years things just continued to get more … interesting. I met my current partner who I love deeply, but our relationship went from 0 to 60 I when found out I was pregnant six months into dating. Navigating pregnancy, motherhood with someone I was still getting to know was in of itself a whirlwind, but early on in my pregnancy, COVID happened. COVID, like for so many people, acted like a pressure cooker -intensifying emotions and stress. Once my daughter was born, it was challenging to say the least to adjust to being a mother. My partner and I were still learning how to live together and be good parents, when my partner’s father contracted COVID and passed away. For several months, all my emotional energy went to my newborn baby and consoling my grieving partner and is his family. In hindsight, it’s clear I was in pure survival mode. Just living day by day, trying desperately to not to give into the doubts I had about my new family making it in one piece.

Fast forward 3 years later, and I’m in a much healthier mental place. I’ve entered the workforce again, have been seeing an excellent therapist, and my relationship with my partner is stronger than ever. I’m able to now move out of crisis mode and get into the real stuff. You know, that deep inner work one can only do once they have their basic fundamental needs met. I’ve learned a lot about myself, and about what I desire. And what I desire is to creatively express myself, share my experience, and hopefully help someone in the process. I have so many thoughts, revelations, and ideas just swirling around in my head everyday, I just wanted a place where I should write them down and share them. I don’t know exactly what direction I want this blog to go, but I just wanted to start.

Passions of mine

Astrology/ general spirituality

Now, I’m absolutely not looking for sympathy nor am I complaining because I know I am blessed, I have a wonderful life. Still, I’ve been through a lot in the last few years, and I’ve done A LOT of spiritual work. Spiritual work many friends in my social groups would write off as being just a little woo woo, but to me it’s the closest thing to “faith” that I’ve felt since….well forever. I’ll get into my discovery of spirituality through astrology and tarot more in later posts.

Animals

I am passionate about animals and strive to donate as much as possible to conservation organizations and animal rescues. Animal welfare has always been a top concern of mine, so if this blog ever reaches a wide enough audience and gets enough attention to bring awareness and create fundraising opportunities, these would be some causes I’d immediately start donating time and (more) money towards. We’ve got a dog named Otto, pet chickens, and two pet cows, Pam and Hank, that we absolutely adore. I’ll share some photos of these love bugs later on 🙂

Fashion

Fashion is something else I love. It was the subject of not just 1, but 2 past blogging attempts. However, writing the fashion blog just felt….fake and formulaic. Firstly, I hate having that many pictures of myself posted on a weekly basis and while I love fashion, it didn’t feel authentic to me to write a blog on “5 trends to try this winter” or “10 staples I can’t live without”. It just wasn’t the creative outlet I was looking for. What I really love to do is curate wardrobes for people and make outfit mood boards to show unique ways of pairing pieces together. You might see them here at some point in other posts so stay tuned.

So, that’s me in a nutshell. If you’re still reading this then congratulations; you’ve surpassed my expectations! All joking aside, I’m okay if this never sees the light of day and just floats out there in the web ether. It’ll be here for my own purposes as I look back and reflect on how I’ve grown years down the road. To whoever is out there, I truly hope you know how unique, special, and valuable your personal story is too. Please, I’d love to hear about what you ponder about, what you struggle with, what you wish you could do more of, etc. We can all learn from each other if we just speak authentically and allow others to do the same. Blessings to you all! See you next time.

Sincerely,

Jeannie